I never do New Year’s resolutions because in my book every day is a new day and a possibility to make a change or begin a new chapter. Nevertheless, what I always do at the end of each year is a kind of reflection of the year that has gone by and evaluate whether it was productive and whether I need to have a clearer focus next year.
The people who have followed my social medias and this blog since its birth in 2014, know that I have always been very career focused and that my career has always been the highlight of my life because I have never really had to overcome any obstacles – everything I have wanted has just come to me and I have not had to work very hard to get what I have wanted.
On the contrary, my personal life has always been a bit of a shit show. Roller coaster relationships and a fragile mental health daunted by death and existential anxiety. And while I have done two rounds of counselling, which made me understand why I am the way I am and why I act the way I do and why I choose the men I do, I never truly made an effort to improve myself.
However, 2018 has been the opposite for me. For the first time in a very long time, I have faced obstacles in my career and it has kind of been put on the back-burner. Instead, this year I have truly focused on my happiness. I have made some pretty big changes in my life that I feel not only have improved my own happiness, but that have made me a better person.
I have fully and truly emerged myself into a more spiritual lifestyle of crystals and meditation that have helped me fill my life with more positivity and less negativity. This naturally led me to stop going out in Mayfair. Following on from that, I decided to only eat a plant based diet at the beginning of the year to feed my body and mind with produce from the earth, and not dead beings and I have stuck by this. My most recent decision involves quitting the consumption of alcohol.
A spiritual journey is an endless one, but I already feel happier, kinder and more at peace with life. So even though I may not have excelled in my career this year, I feel like the progression I have made in my personal life is far greater than any promotion or pay rise.