L’ETO CAFFE

I just have to recommend L’ETO CAFFE! The café in Knightsbridge was literally my go to spot the whole autumn last year – used to sit there for hours by myself and enjoy their brunch and baked goodies. The food is honestly amazing, really good breakfast place. Although it does get busy and the service is not amazing. But still really nice place!

NEGATIVE ENERGY

Those who know me know I am not religious. I do not believe in a higher power or a God. However, I do believe in energies, crystals, chakras, star signs and the lot (basically anything related to energy). So I guess I am more spiritual than anything.

I think you guys might remember that I not too long ago wrote that I feel very happy where I am currently in my life. That still remains the same. January 2018 is a great month for us Aries career wise, and I am certainly making the most of it. I feel very motivated.

In my personal life I also feel very much at ease and grateful for my relationship with my mother which is fantastic, and my relationship with my friends – I do not think I have ever had this many GOOD friends in my life ever.

Regardless of this, I can feel bad vibes and negative energies penetrating my aura. Be it the hate, jealousy, pettiness or upset of others. And I cannot help but notice it, even though I would have wished to just ignore it. I am aware that by acknowledging it, I am in a way letting these negative energies poke holes in my aura, but I just cannot ignore them at present. I am currently carrying my black tourmaline with me everywhere, and I am hoping that this will protect me from these negative thoughts, energies and people. I am also going to start meditating with my crystals, which is something I have not done before. Hopefully this will not only protect my aura, but keep my soul in tune.

I will not let other people ruin my mood, my aura, or my motivation in life. I will continue to return the haters’ negative energy with my positive energy. Have a fabulous day everyone!

WORK WORK WORK

BTS for Kryolan

I am excited for tomorrow. I have not done a modelling job in a while due to working full time at the law firm, so when I was asked by my favourite make up company do a job tomorrow, and my law firm agreed to give me the day off, I was so happy. I think I really thrive when I get to do a lot of different things, which stimulate different parts of my brain. Sitting in an office day in and day out can get dull, especially during this time of the year when it is dark when I get up and dark when I leave work. So tomorrow is like field day for me haha!

This weekend will also be fun. Got a birthday on Saturday and date day/night on Sunday. Knowing myself I will most likely be going out on Friday too. The weekends are always my time to let off some steam – I work a fulltime job in a firm and do modelling and blogging part time on the side, so when I get time off I tend to make the most of it.

I hope you all have a fabulous weekend!

2017

2017 in pictures

It is very seldom I stop and take a moment to feel proud of my achievements. I think it is because I normalise my own life quite often and the things that I go through or the things I achieve – I tend to feel quite static in my everyday life, as if I am not really going anywhere and that I have not actually made any real progress in my life. That is not to say that I do not feel confident with myself or my achievements, I think I simply compare myself to the big dogs way too often. Sometimes I have to humble myself and remind myself that I am only 23. So with the New Year arriving, and leaving 2017 behind, I decided to take a moment to think back of the things I feel proud of this year. 

2017 in pictures

This year I think there are three major things that I feel proud about – one career related, one academic and one relating to my emotional well-being.

First and foremost I landed a full time contract at my law firm which meant I had more responsibilities in an area which I was not very familiar with. I was put out of my comfort zone and I managed to still do very well have received a lot of praise. That is something I am very proud of.

Second, I managed to complete my Master’s Degree irrespective of the emotional and mental issues I was dealing with during the entire course of that degree. While I was nervous about my result – I was not sure I would even pass – I received my final grade a few weeks ago and was awarded a Merit. I am very proud of myself for this too.

Third, I was able to come to terms with my only real fear in life. Not overcome it, because I doubt I ever will, but to just accept its existence and not letting it govern my relationships or my life. It is still there, present every day, but it does not have the same power over me anymore. And that is something I am particularly happy about and proud of.

2017 in pictures

Not going to lie, 2017 did take the life out of me slightly. But I do feel positive looking forward. I feel ambitious, and I am ready to take on new ventures. I also feel very happy in my personal life, I have some great people around me who love and support me.

CANDLE OBSESSION

I have developed a weird candle obsession. In my room I have a candle collection from various brands and with various scents. I knew it was getting bad when I bought a candle from Harrods for money which could have fed me for a week haha. So I started looking for affordable but still luxurious candles. I liked Jo Malone but they burned out too quickly. Now I think I have finally found the brand I will stick with for a long time – I have already bought 3 candles from them – and it’s Rituals. I already had a hand wash and hand lotion from them which I loved, and their candles are just as magical! The great thing about their products is that they are not expensive but feel like they are. A perfect gift or simply to spoil yourself!’

(Please ignore my morning brows haha!)

MERRY CHRISTMAS

In Sweden we celebrate Christmas on the 24th, so I am saying Merry Christmas today! My morning started off by opening gifts my mum left for me before she went on her trip, and also finishing wrapping some gifts up. Last year I spent Christmas alone which was a bit depressing haha but this year I am spending it with a special someone and his family which I am really thankful for. I am not a massive fan of Christmas, but it is a time when you are meant to come together with your loved ones, so that is what I am doing this year. I am also excited to make all my traditional Swedish Christmas food vegan style – I will let you know our verdict of the recipes later! I hope you all have a fabulous Christmas filled with love 🙂

NEW HAIR ROUTINE

 

I have started a new hair routine! I personally think that it is so important to keep your hair looking healthy, because if you have split ends or dry hair, it does not matter if your outfit is on point or your make up is flawless – this is all that people will see (or at least that is what I see when I look at other people haha!). So having used Tigi for pretty much most of my teenage years up until now, I decided to try a brand I have only heard good things ago: Kérastase. And boy, am I impressed! While they have various different shampoos and conditioners for different kinds of hair, I decided to go for one that makes your hair soft and silky – because my hair is not really dry nor is it brittle. I also decided to buy the leave in conditioner to go with it and I can honestly say that I will never go back haha. Above is my hair after one wash…

I might as well take this opportunity to say that the blog has now gone English full time haha. As you know, I have been translating every single text in both Swedish and English and it becomes a bit exhausting after a while, especially when I am writing longer texts (for which I have only written in English). So for the sake of coherence of posts, and because I am pretty sure most of you Swedes are somewhat good at English anyway, this will now be the new format of the blog. Hope you all like it!

KEEPING YOUR GUARD UP AND BEING ALONE

There is a fine line between letting your guard down and keeping it up. Most people are quite good at staying somewhere in the middle, slowly letting their guard down, allowing them to love and be loved back, while still being vigilant to threats to their emotional well-being.

For me there is no in-between. For me, it is literally one or the other. Either my guard is completely up and I do not let myself feel anything for any man, or it goes right down, way too quick, often resulting in heartache. I have always tried to think of relationships and love in a logical manner – yet, we all know love is not always logical. It seldom makes any sense whatsoever to be frank. I have lately thought: “Well, if I keep my guard up, I will never be hurt by a man again.” Hence, why I got the name “Ice Queen”.

I think what it really boils down to is the question of whether you are okay with being alone. I constantly have people telling me: “You cannot keep your guard up forever, you will end up alone.” But is that really so bad? I understand that people are different, and I understand that some are completely fine being alone their whole life, while others can barely be without their partner for a day. What I have noticed about myself is that, while being alone neither makes me filled with joy, it also does not hurt me or make me upset. All relationships I have been in have resulted in me being either euphoric or upset to the point of depression. And when you have experienced that roller coaster of emotions, being alone with emotions that are balanced and constant does not seem so bad at all.

I am not saying that all relationships are like the ones I have had, and neither am I blaming the people I have been with (although some were absolute dick heads). I think it is mainly because I am quite overwhelming and intimidating to a lot of men – I speak my mind, I challenge, I have my own back financially, I have my own dreams and goals in life, and I love myself. “You act like you are fucking Kim K or Beyonce – you’re not!” – I am very aware that I am not, but just because I am not famous, or have a millions in the bank, or am flawlessly beautiful, that does not mean I cannot love, cherish and respect myself. “I come first, you come second.” And I think this is ultimately where the issue rests. Most men want a woman to put them first, their feelings, their thoughts, their careers – to understand them and where they come from. And quite frankly, while I believe in an equally supportive relationship, I will never put any of those things of a man before my own.

So perhaps I will end up alone. Perhaps I will completely change my view on this when I am older and desperately try to find a man to share the rest of my life with. But until that day comes, I am good. I am not willing to compromise my happiness for anyone. The Ice Queen saga continues…